Uncertainty.

 

Wow we've been neglecting this blog for so long! (Glad you noticed) It's not that I've forgotten about it (really), it's just that I've been thinking about what to write and how to present it and whether it would even be good that whatever ideas I had all got tangled in a web of confusion (like this post is about to get). 

So I thought I'd write about what I have been feeling these past few weeks (and panicking about), and hopefully you can relate (the entire point of this blog!). Uncertainty. Uncertainty about the future. Uncertainty about what to eat next. Uncertainty about career choices. Uncertainty about what to wear. Uncertainty about how we look. Uncertainty about how other people look at us. Uncertainty about whether we'd be able to support the kind of lifestyle we've been dreaming of. Uncertainty about shoe choices. Uncertainty about literally anything and everything. 

With this generation we've pretty much seen almost everything (a gross exaggeration but okay). A global pandemic, wars in different parts of the world, repression and regression of women's rights, fights and wins for women's rights, a gentler society and at the same time a crueler one (opposite much?), economy on the down (don't ask me anything about this I beg you). Everything feels uncertain, we want to be happy in our choice of career, we want a happy relationship (or not, whatever floats your boat), we want to be happy. 

Would any of this even be possible? Would we get the position of our dreams, the job of our dreams, find who we are? (Feels like spiralling)

Well you know what, let's spiral. It's okay. It'll lead us somewhere or the other. Let's roll with our inner voice (that's meee), no matter how irritating it might be (okay offensive). Let's just live how we want to. Not to please anyone else, but to please our own selves. If smiling helps you feel happy, let's smile. If crying helps you feel lighter, let's cry. Do what makes you happy. No one can love us better than we can love ourselves. Yes the future's uncertain, but you know what I have enough faith in us to know that we can figure it out. 

Borrowing the lyrics of some very very cool people, 

“If there’s a beginning then there’s an end, and if there’s an end then there’s another beginning. I think this is another new beginning.”

Every end is a new beginning, so let's not be afraid to walk away from toxicity, and to focus on ourselves. Let's embrace the uncertainty ("easier said than done"- Yes I know), it might make us happy or it might make us sad, but at least we moved forward, at least we took a step, at least we did that much(okay that's enough talk from me).

Maybe this entire post is just me finally listening to that inner voice we're so good at ignoring. The one that panics, spirals, overthinks, but also reminds us to slow down, trust ourselves and keep going. Instead of silencing, let's try to roll with (no matter how annoying I may be;))

As always, if you related to anything in this post and want to talk more, please feel free to reach out, we would love to hear what you think!